Showing posts with label frustration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frustration. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

A bit of precum from a good short fuck! Progress!

Mistress fucked me for about 10 minutes while I was on my knees on the floor, and I actually dribbled a bit of precum!
Record time for starting to drip, and it felt amazing.
She used a bit of analese on me and I think that helped quite a bit.

She asked if I felt sufficiently used, and I think I made a bit of a mistake in saying "no." but I didn't. it was a great fuck, but it didn't last nearly long enough and I was just left wanting.
However after thinking about it longer I realized that she DID use me. I was left unsatisfied and that was what she was going for.

She gave me a talk about being grateful to get any attention from her at all after she let me bathe her in the shower.

Last night was fun. I can't wait until next time she takes out her toy.

Monday, September 29, 2014

3 months of Denial and Milking Training

It's been a long time since i've posted anything on this blog, but Mistress Luchia and i have been been playing again.
i have learned of a website over the summer, thanks to the wonder of the reddit community, called milovana. It has a lot of web teases, and one of them caught my interest. i showed it to Mistress and she took that one, along with a few others and combined them into one long training session for me.

i am not allowed to cum for a whole of 3 months which started at the end of August. i gave myself entirely to her for the 3 month period during my milking training, and am now her absolute slave in a Female Led Relationship.

The milking training happens once a week, and i am only allowed to cum if i can do it anally. Mistress will massage my prostate and fuck my ass until she is tired, or until i can successfully leak and dribble cum out of my cock for her, where it will be kept and stored.

so far it's been a month. 3 milking sessions! and tonight is the 4th milking night. i haven't had any success at all so far with my milkings, and i haven't cum at all.
Talk about being constantly aroused! i'm going crazy.
i thought that the chastity period before our wedding was hard, but this has proven to be much more difficult.

Mistress has been kind in that i have been let out of my cage periodically for days at a time. currently i'm out of it right now. This is for many reasons, but basically i only get put in my cage when i really can't control myself to keep from jacking off. i do it sometimes without even thinking about it.

i'll update this blog regularly for any of those who are interested in the progress. Maybe even convince Mistress to help me out with posting pictures.

this is going to be a long 2 months to go. i'm hoping for success with my milking tonight.

For now though, it's time to go start dinner, and then to work more on my Mistress's new necklace. i've taken the key to my cage and am working it into a necklace. i'll post pictures of that for sure once it's finished.

Have fun out there everyone. ;D

Monday, December 23, 2013

Being married is wonderful in it's own way

It's been a while since my wife and I have played with the chastity device that I bought. Actually, it's not even come out since before we were married! We're both worried about the chaffing honestly...

We have been experimenting with bondage and submission though. I'm also trying so hard to get my ass trained to take her cock. She's been using a dildo that I bought a while ago to fuck me with her strapon. It's hard to find a good position that will allow her to get any good leverage though...

I spend a lot of time on Anna malace's page, seeing a lot of sissy's taking it so hard and so expertly. Oh to be fucked like that...

I bought a butt plug a while ago that I've been practicing with. I'm hoping that it will help with the anal play. It's a little bigger at it's widest point than the dildo she uses to fuck me. I have to say, it is a lot of fun to use on it's own too.

I mentioned to her that one of the sexiest fantasies that I have had would be to be bound somehow, filled, blindfolded and then left alone for extended periods of time.

My loving wife and Mistress obliged! The next night she had to go to work. It was a 4 hour shift. She would be gone nearly 5 hours total.

She took my plug and pushed it into me. Time was short so it didn't go in smooth. I didn't have a lot of warm up, but that's ok. I understood, and the pain soon dulled.

She blind folded me, and tied my legs spread eagle to the bottom of the bed, and my arms up over me.
She left my left hand free just in case there was some kind of an emergency, however she placed small beads on my body. One at my throat, one on my chest, one in my belly button, and one just above my cock.

She said "you can play however you like, but don't let these fall while I'm gone." She then found a 5 hour long sound file on youtube of some drone-like chanting, and kissed me goodbye.

I had to stay almost motionless for almost 5 hours! It was torture. all I could do was rock my hips a bit to rub the butt plug inside of me. Masturbating didn't work for fear of losing the beads on my body.

All I had to listen to was the mindless chanting. Surrounded by darkness. I had no idea how long it had been, or how long I had left.

It was the hottest thing.

When she FINALLY came home I was so excited. Instead of letting me go though, she stripped naked and the first thing I felt of her was her pussy sliding around my hard cock. It was HEAVEN after so long!
She rode me hard, and we both came in a thunderous orgasm. Only then did she untie me, and let me take the plug out.

I hope we get to play like that again soon... Maybe we'll find a way to get my ass good and ready to be fucked like a slut that I am. 
Any advice?

Saturday, August 3, 2013

I just wished I Could be milked

I have never been so horny in my life. I don't think so anyway. Not since I was first discovering myself.

Wandering around town today I was rubbing against the seat of my truck. I find myself pressing into things constantly. Now that I'm at home I try to occupy myself with cleaning, projects that I need to get done, downloading music, dishes, ANYTHING, but my mind just keeps going back to sex.

Normally I have sex on the mind, but when I come the urge dissipates for a while anyway. right now I can't masturbate no matter how badly I want to, but my balls are heavy and full, and I can feel my insides yearning for some kind of release.

I didn't think it would be this difficult after only a WEEK!! I mean really? Am I that desperate? I feel like I'm a failure as a person for wanting sex SO BADLY! I'm typing in all caps for pete's sake.

I mean, how is it so easy for girls to go so long without sex? And I feel like other guys must be able to go more than a week. Am I just weak willed? I must be or else I wouldn't have needed the cage I suppose...

The cage is awesome, but it's also extremely frustrating. All I want is to cum! Just a little! I'd take precum!
The urge to get fucked has never been greater either. I enjoy anal penetration, sure, but right now I NEED it. Just the thought of sitting down on my Mistresses big cock and rocking back and forth on it makes my mouth water. Just the idea of resting the head of it inside of me right on my prostate and grinding down against it makes me strain against my constraints!

I need to find something to get my mind of of this. I made the agreement that I wouldn't cum unless I'm with her, and I promised long before that I wouldn't fuck myself with Mistress Luchia's cock unless I asked her first, so it's not going anywhere but back in the drawer (I just wanted to show you all.)
But wow do I wish it was in something else...

Thursday, August 1, 2013

4 days

It's only been four days since I set the lock onto my new CB-6000, but it feels like it's been weeks. I've grown accustomed to wearing it now, and I can move around pretty much unhindered during normal day to day activities. I even used a chainsaw and mowed the lawn. That's good news. No pinching and no welts. Unlike the other cage, this one isn't giving me small cuts along the bottom of my testicles either!



I posted some of my findings up on 4chan and there is quite a discussion going on over there. I've been told that instead of buying the CB-6000 I should have gotten the CB-6000s. The s stands for Small, and it would take away some of the empty space at the end of my cage.
If I had known about that before I bought this one, then I probably would have. Having all of the extra space is actually quite difficult to deal with. I've got to shower twice a day just to keep it cleaned out after I pee. It's not the worst thing in the world though.

Another modification I had to do was use some tape to tape the lock to the device. If I didn't, then it would rattle around, and when I walked I was like a cat with a bell. This might be good in a lot of scenarios, but not when I'm at work, or visiting family!

I am so horny. I had a dream last night where I was being seduced by a ghost as I walked through a deserted campground. She kept giving me a 'come hither' finger, and grinning at me, but I could never get close enough to her. I woke up twice with a raging erection, and the head of my cock fighting against the tube of the cage.

I have 23 days left. Then I'll be released for the wedding. Shortly after I'll be able to sleep with my new wife. If four days felt like weeks, how long will the next 23 feel like?