Vivid imagination

For the past couple of days I have been dreaming all through the night. I don't know why I've been resting right on the edge of sleep so much, but that's where I get the most vivid dreams.
I shouldn't have to specify that many of them involve sex of some kind. However, as though my body knows that I'm unable to actually cum, I am even wearing my chastity harness in my dreams!

The other night I had a dream where I was in the water, at the beach swimming and when I came out I had lost my suit, but I was still wearing my cage. Instead of shock or laughter it was met with careful artistic consideration, but I felt exposed. Then Mistress Luchia walked me up to one of those seaside bars and had me sit on the counter while we had small talk with the bartender. Luchia was showing me off proudly and happily, but I remember being more than a little embarrassed about it all. I woke up that morning slightly before my alarm when she started, in the dream, to tease me to get me hard in the cage to show some people who were asking questions, then I woke up straining against the plastic walls. I had to take a shower to get it to go down!

Last night I dreamed that I was out in public with my Mistress. We were talking with friends and having a grand time, I was again naked, and she kept hinting that we should get out of there to go be alone.
She chased me around the room playfully and then down the street until we came to our small 2nd story flat somewhere a little ways outside of downtown of the city we were in. I was to go upstairs and get ready and she was going to join me in a bit. Then I just remember some flashes of intimacy and the sweet feeling of her fingertips through the tiny holes in the cage.

Eventually this dream turned into a more mundane one involving a long walk down a road with a blind man and a bear... I'm not sure what that one meant, but I was at least clothed for it!

This is day 9. I have read blogs of other men in chastity that last for months, or even over a year! I don't know if that would be very fun. I'm not a through and through submissive. Don't get me wrong, I am quite submissive, and I love the feeling of it! However it's not my permanent state of being. My lover and I are equals in life. I give myself to her as she gives herself to me, and we would have it no other way.

This month is worth every moment of frustration. In some ways though I think I would have done better to keep my mind off of sex if I didn't have this on. I thought I might get used to it and have more time for other things, but it seems I'm even more distracted by sexual thoughts than I was before! Just now, I can have no release.

I'll last, and I'll survive. This is just has a very interesting newness to it.

I get to see her again tonight. We're going over our vows. I can't wait.

4 days

It's only been four days since I set the lock onto my new CB-6000, but it feels like it's been weeks. I've grown accustomed to wearing it now, and I can move around pretty much unhindered during normal day to day activities. I even used a chainsaw and mowed the lawn. That's good news. No pinching and no welts. Unlike the other cage, this one isn't giving me small cuts along the bottom of my testicles either!

I posted some of my findings up on 4chan and there is quite a discussion going on over there. I've been told that instead of buying the CB-6000 I should have gotten the CB-6000s. The s stands for Small, and it would take away some of the empty space at the end of my cage.
If I had known about that before I bought this one, then I probably would have. Having all of the extra space is actually quite difficult to deal with. I've got to shower twice a day just to keep it cleaned out after I pee. It's not the worst thing in the world though.

Another modification I had to do was use some tape to tape the lock to the device. If I didn't, then it would rattle around, and when I walked I was like a cat with a bell. This might be good in a lot of scenarios, but not when I'm at work, or visiting family!

I am so horny. I had a dream last night where I was being seduced by a ghost as I walked through a deserted campground. She kept giving me a 'come hither' finger, and grinning at me, but I could never get close enough to her. I woke up twice with a raging erection, and the head of my cock fighting against the tube of the cage.

I have 23 days left. Then I'll be released for the wedding. Shortly after I'll be able to sleep with my new wife. If four days felt like weeks, how long will the next 23 feel like?

Old dreams came back again.

Last night was painful.

I woke up 3 times. The first was a normal nocturnal erection. It hurt, but it subsided after I massaged my balls for a bit.

The second was a much worse erection. This sent me running though. It wouldn't go away. And I've modified the cage a bit so I had something that was wrong.

See without the screw the penis section of the cage can flop around a bit. this leads not only to discomfort, but also in the possibility of me falling out of it!! That not only would break my promise, but it would also be very awkward if it happened in public. So I added some zip ties to hold it together.

You can see the one I put on last night highlighted a bit.

What I had put on before was far too tight for nocturnal erection strength. I had to cut them off and try again. After a couple of tries I finally got one that would keep me locked in, but wouldn't be dangerously tight either.

I went back to sleep, but it wasn't a deep sleep. Obvious because of the dreams... I don't remember much, but I do know that I was naked, and I was driving down the road. I kept dodging my head away from oncoming traffic so that they wouldn't see me. I was ashamed. 

I had to cum though. I Needed to cum! I was masturbating while I drove. Furiously masturbating. The car was swirving off the road some and I started careening over the edge! My left hand swung the wheel while my right jerked my cock. It was a mix of fear and release! I was so close!! The car was held onto the road by only two wheels, and somehow I managed to right it.

Not for long though. An oncoming tractor trailer started honking it's horn at me and I swerved again, this time the tires lost grip as I tried to avoid a sign, and I fell of the edge down an impossibly deep canyon next to the road. 

I was so. close. to cumming... 

If I had just a moment more to fall!

But I didn't.. I woke up, my right hand cupping my swollen balls.

My Mistress, Luchia, says she thinks that I'll go through the symptoms of withdrawal over the next month. I hope that's not the case. I don't want to feel all of those things. But Who knows... I haven't had a dream like that since I had first discovered myself at the age of 10. I masturbate too much normally to have DREAMS of masturbation.

I have to go to work. I'll keep both hands on the wheel.