"I'm going to fuck you until you beg me to stop...

And then you can cum as much as you want."

That's what Mistress Luchia had told me Monday morning. I hadn't remembered it, as I thought it was just a sexy thing to say at the time. I was wrong though.

When I got home from work last night, I took a shower, had some wine, and after being forgetful again I grabbed my milking box from the corner and presented it to her.

"Will you please fuck me and milk me Mistress?" I asked.

She told me to strip, and kneel on my hands and knees on the bed. I put my head down and she got a long thin black scarf from somewhere. Mistress tied my balls and cock tightly at the base, and then she tied each long, free end to each of my ankles. I couldn't stand up straight, and I couldn't get out of my kneeling position without causing myself a lot of discomfort.

Where did she learn that?

I kept my head down as she put some analese on my ass  and then started to fuck me. It was light at first, but then it got harder. Then it got harder still. Then it was fast, and hard, and light exploded behind my eyes as I moaned and clawed at the bedsheets.

I was screaming into the pillow and biting against the pain from being fucked so hard and fast. Earlier in the day I had mentioned to her that there was a forum I'd seen that tells you how to make a home made fucking machine.

"You don't need a fucking machine. You have me. Aren't you my little bitch?"

I couldn't answer her. My concentration was on trying to keep my ass open and presented to her constantly pounding cock in my ass. A stiff, 8 inch replica cock with only a slight amount of give.

Finally I remembered how to speak. I cried out "Please!"

"Please What?" she asked.

"please... stop..."

That was the end. She did. She stopped fucking me.

I was relieved when she pulled her cock out of me, but at the same time it felt empty after being so abused. I couldn't move. I couldn't think at the time. I just stayed collapsed on the bed until I heard the shower start in the bathroom.

I went to join Mistress and we talked about how it went. I was still dazed and fuzzy, which felt good.

She asked me if she broke me, and I nodded, as I had never begged anyone to stop anything before. She also said that next time she wouldn't stop when I begged her too.

25 minutes. She was disappointed though. She was shooting for 30.

Once we were out of the shower she took me back to the bed and started playing with my cock. I wasn't sure if I could do any more, but I managed after a bit of her toying with me.

She pushed me onto my back and put my inside of her and started to ride me, hard and fast. I asked if I was allowed to cum and she leaned over and pushed her body against mine. Mistress breathed her answer into my ear "I promised this morning that I was going to fuck you until you beg me to stop, and then you can cum as much as you want."

It wasn't much longer before I exploded inside of her.

Monday is my favorite day.

A bit of precum from a good short fuck! Progress!

Mistress fucked me for about 10 minutes while I was on my knees on the floor, and I actually dribbled a bit of precum!
Record time for starting to drip, and it felt amazing.
She used a bit of analese on me and I think that helped quite a bit.

She asked if I felt sufficiently used, and I think I made a bit of a mistake in saying "no." but I didn't. it was a great fuck, but it didn't last nearly long enough and I was just left wanting.
However after thinking about it longer I realized that she DID use me. I was left unsatisfied and that was what she was going for.

She gave me a talk about being grateful to get any attention from her at all after she let me bathe her in the shower.

Last night was fun. I can't wait until next time she takes out her toy.

3 months of Denial and Milking Training

It's been a long time since i've posted anything on this blog, but Mistress Luchia and i have been been playing again.
i have learned of a website over the summer, thanks to the wonder of the reddit community, called milovana. It has a lot of web teases, and one of them caught my interest. i showed it to Mistress and she took that one, along with a few others and combined them into one long training session for me.

i am not allowed to cum for a whole of 3 months which started at the end of August. i gave myself entirely to her for the 3 month period during my milking training, and am now her absolute slave in a Female Led Relationship.

The milking training happens once a week, and i am only allowed to cum if i can do it anally. Mistress will massage my prostate and fuck my ass until she is tired, or until i can successfully leak and dribble cum out of my cock for her, where it will be kept and stored.

so far it's been a month. 3 milking sessions! and tonight is the 4th milking night. i haven't had any success at all so far with my milkings, and i haven't cum at all.
Talk about being constantly aroused! i'm going crazy.
i thought that the chastity period before our wedding was hard, but this has proven to be much more difficult.

Mistress has been kind in that i have been let out of my cage periodically for days at a time. currently i'm out of it right now. This is for many reasons, but basically i only get put in my cage when i really can't control myself to keep from jacking off. i do it sometimes without even thinking about it.

i'll update this blog regularly for any of those who are interested in the progress. Maybe even convince Mistress to help me out with posting pictures.

this is going to be a long 2 months to go. i'm hoping for success with my milking tonight.

For now though, it's time to go start dinner, and then to work more on my Mistress's new necklace. i've taken the key to my cage and am working it into a necklace. i'll post pictures of that for sure once it's finished.

Have fun out there everyone. ;D

Being married is wonderful in it's own way

It's been a while since my wife and I have played with the chastity device that I bought. Actually, it's not even come out since before we were married! We're both worried about the chaffing honestly...

We have been experimenting with bondage and submission though. I'm also trying so hard to get my ass trained to take her cock. She's been using a dildo that I bought a while ago to fuck me with her strapon. It's hard to find a good position that will allow her to get any good leverage though...

I spend a lot of time on Anna malace's page, seeing a lot of sissy's taking it so hard and so expertly. Oh to be fucked like that...

I bought a butt plug a while ago that I've been practicing with. I'm hoping that it will help with the anal play. It's a little bigger at it's widest point than the dildo she uses to fuck me. I have to say, it is a lot of fun to use on it's own too.

I mentioned to her that one of the sexiest fantasies that I have had would be to be bound somehow, filled, blindfolded and then left alone for extended periods of time.

My loving wife and Mistress obliged! The next night she had to go to work. It was a 4 hour shift. She would be gone nearly 5 hours total.

She took my plug and pushed it into me. Time was short so it didn't go in smooth. I didn't have a lot of warm up, but that's ok. I understood, and the pain soon dulled.

She blind folded me, and tied my legs spread eagle to the bottom of the bed, and my arms up over me.
She left my left hand free just in case there was some kind of an emergency, however she placed small beads on my body. One at my throat, one on my chest, one in my belly button, and one just above my cock.

She said "you can play however you like, but don't let these fall while I'm gone." She then found a 5 hour long sound file on youtube of some drone-like chanting, and kissed me goodbye.

I had to stay almost motionless for almost 5 hours! It was torture. all I could do was rock my hips a bit to rub the butt plug inside of me. Masturbating didn't work for fear of losing the beads on my body.

All I had to listen to was the mindless chanting. Surrounded by darkness. I had no idea how long it had been, or how long I had left.

It was the hottest thing.

When she FINALLY came home I was so excited. Instead of letting me go though, she stripped naked and the first thing I felt of her was her pussy sliding around my hard cock. It was HEAVEN after so long!

She rode me hard, and we both came in a thunderous orgasm. Only then did she untie me, and let me take the plug out.

I hope we get to play like that again soon... Maybe we'll find a way to get my ass good and ready to be fucked like a slut that I am. 

Any advice?

I just wished I Could be milked

I have never been so horny in my life. I don't think so anyway. Not since I was first discovering myself.

Wandering around town today I was rubbing against the seat of my truck. I find myself pressing into things constantly. Now that I'm at home I try to occupy myself with cleaning, projects that I need to get done, downloading music, dishes, ANYTHING, but my mind just keeps going back to sex.

Normally I have sex on the mind, but when I come the urge dissipates for a while anyway. right now I can't masturbate no matter how badly I want to, but my balls are heavy and full, and I can feel my insides yearning for some kind of release.

I didn't think it would be this difficult after only a WEEK!! I mean really? Am I that desperate? I feel like I'm a failure as a person for wanting sex SO BADLY! I'm typing in all caps for pete's sake.

I mean, how is it so easy for girls to go so long without sex? And I feel like other guys must be able to go more than a week. Am I just weak willed? I must be or else I wouldn't have needed the cage I suppose...

The cage is awesome, but it's also extremely frustrating. All I want is to cum! Just a little! I'd take precum!
The urge to get fucked has never been greater either. I enjoy anal penetration, sure, but right now I NEED it. Just the thought of sitting down on my Mistresses big cock and rocking back and forth on it makes my mouth water. Just the idea of resting the head of it inside of me right on my prostate and grinding down against it makes me strain against my constraints!

I need to find something to get my mind of of this. I made the agreement that I wouldn't cum unless I'm with her, and I promised long before that I wouldn't fuck myself with Mistress Luchia's cock unless I asked her first, so it's not going anywhere but back in the drawer (I just wanted to show you all.)

But wow do I wish it was in something else...

Things are never what you expect

When we walked into the house late Sunday afternoon she disappeared into the bathroom while I unloaded the car.
I started to pick things up in the bedroom. I was going to take a shower. Our time was running out before she had to leave for home, and I wasn't sure we would even get to the best laid plans we'd made the day before.

I was wrong.

She walked out of the bathroom, bare and powerful. she smirked at me. I loved this smirk. Only one corner of one side of her mouth bends upwards, and her eyebrows twitch with the voice of a challenge.

I removed my clothes as well and headed towards the shower. My cage was still in place, yet only with the screw, and it was in need of being cleaned after two days of use.

She joined me under the water as I bathed, and brought with her a screw driver. ahhh freedom! It was a wonderful thing! And even better, only a moment after my cock had been freed, she trapped it again, yet this time in the soft and tantalizing confines of her mouth. She teased me until I was hard, then stood again.

"Go on." She said to me, beckoning me to continue with my shower. I did as I was told. I showered, shaved my cock, balls, ass, and then rinsed myself off under the water. I got out of the shower and moved to the bedroom, and she followed close behind.

The next hour went by slowly, and I am glad that it did. It was an hour that I would have let last forever. We made love with one another like there was no tomorrow, and in some ways we both knew this was true.

She rode on top of me at first, then told me to fuck her if I wanted, and oh I did! I pushed her off of me, we both flipped positions and I held her knees up to her chest as I entered her. I love this position. Wrapping her up like a small package, and then teasing, fucking, and toying with her all I want.

She came twice, internal orgasms, and I came once inside of her. We collapsed into a heap to breath... This is almost always the best part of sex for me. The aftermath, the cuddling, the smiles and silly expressions. It's in the moments after sex, when we're breathless, naked, and vulnerable that I'm the most comfortable about my place in life.

I still had a craving though. I was in need of something more.
We have been experimenting more and more with anal sex lately. She's gotten quite good at finding my prostate and massaging it, and one of our goals is for her to be able to make me cum without any other stimulation except for her finger inside of me.

I love this feeling, and she was kind enough to let me feel it again. I didn't end up cumming from her finger this time, but she did give me quite a good fucking with it.

After all of this love making, time was running short. It was time for the cage to go back on. My Mistress had me gather the pieces of the cage and get them ready. I had to take a drill and make the hole where the screw once went a little bigger to accommodate the lock. From now on this is only a locking device.
I sat on the edge of the bed as I readied the ring around my cock and balls. She took my dick into her mouth and got me hard again. It didn't take much. She tells me she likes doing this so that I can feel myself being trapped and confined.

She knows how to push my buttons in all the right ways.

The cage went on.

The lock was fed through the hole.

"Do you give yourself willingly to me? This is your choice?" She asked me.

"Yes." I felt suddenly a bit apprehensive. She was playing a moment ago and now her demeanor had changed entirely.

"You know that I'll never hurt you. Do you trust me?"

"Yes. I trust you."

She smiled, and I heard a Click.

It was done. I was locked up, and she held the key to the number lock in her head.

I was hers.

This was nothing like the other day. The feeling was something new entirely! I felt more naked than I ever had in my entire life. I had given my penis away. I no longer had the power to grow erect. I would not be able to cum unless it was with her.

I was hers.

I fell to my knees and shook. It was such an overwhelming feeling. One that I still can not describe. Goosebumps covered my body and I looked up at her. She was concerned, but I told her that it was ok. I was happy, and I was willing. This exchange of power had simply left me feeling... small.

I spent the rest of the evening trying to sort out my emotions. I was more in love than ever. I was more sure of it now than I ever had been. To know that there was someone who I could trust so fully filled me to the brim with joy!

It still does. I'm not over the feeling. I hope that I never will be.